Sleep. I Miss It.

The last time I checked, it is one week until Christmas. That means ALL OF THE CHAOS and such. Normally I have all of my Christmas shopping well before this point, but this year I missed my window. I try to have it all done before Christmas Crazy starts because I cannot multi-task my shopping and the organizing that goes on behind the scenes for the other. So, like, December 1st I need to be done with our family and such.

I hadn't started as of December 1st this year. Heck, I hadn't done much of anything as of December 15th this year.

PANIC.

Except, maybe not.

I know what Alexis is getting and it requires the universe to provide decent customer service. THAT HAS NOT HAPPENED. In fact, I just walked away from a store empty-handed because I can't even. I want to give a store money, but they don't want to take it. WHATEVER.

I'll figure it out before the weekend. Hopefully.

Mila, though. Mila is a whole other situation. I have a few things for her, but I'm beginning to think I should stop with those few things because that kid is clearly confused. I know she knows Santa is just around the corner, and yet. AND YET.

She hasn't been sleeping lately.

Last night was worse than the newborn days with her.

For the past few weeks, Miss Mila has been waking up over and over all night long and screaming. Just screaming. She doesn't want anything. Nothing hurts. She has no words to explain why she's screaming - she just wants to scream. And kick and flail and did I mention that I am required to be present for her shenanigans? That's the only thing she's clear about. She really definitely wants me to be close enough for her to kick and she'd rather if she could scream directly in my ear.

Needless to say, I have a favorite kid right now and she's the one who is, for the first time in her entire life, the one who is the better sleeper.

What are the odds that Santa will bring me a full night of sleep? Because that's all I really want.

(Alexis did not pick this photo for our Christmas cards this year and I completely do not understand why not. IT IS SO PERFECT.)

Comments

[Mary]

Poor you. Poor Tiny. Its s o hard when you don't have the words to communicate what is going on.

[Laura]

Best. Photo. Ever!